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Why is it that there are times when I don't feel like doing anything.... I try to rearrange and all that gets messed up..... I plan and everything is destroyed...

Confused.... Stuck.... In between of an unknown labyrinth.... Running....trying hard....To find an escape way.... But can't.... Can't even solve the maze....

So just trying.... To solve it.... only to find another dead end.... I am tired.... so I just sit.... and see the maze grow...

Why can't I be everything I want to be....why am I stuck in the monotony of an ordinary human lifestyle.....

By the time I will be out of that bigger maze.... I will just be an old man.... filled with regret.... ready to die alone....

Why should I take birth... why should I grow, study, get a job, get a home, get a wife, have children, grow, get old, retire, weaken and ultimately die...

Why should I know what will happen to me.... why should I know what has happened to me??... why should I remember...... why should I forget??

Even if someday I find a way out.... this world will throw a bigger maze at my head....

I look inside my head..... only to find it is painted black to infinity.... No end is reachable.... I lie somewhere in between.... aimless....

Why is this life too short.... why can't I solve this labyrinth and the next one.... And all of them... And stay young... To be free...To live my life....

If I had a year to live what would I do......

If I only had an year remaining my primary objectives would become.......
1.start doing what I alws wished......
2.stop following rules......
3.make at least one short film.....and write stories.........2 thrillers, 2 comedies, one love story, one horror, one for children, one fantasy, one science fiction.
4.go round the world.....have load...s of fun.........
5.do bungee jumping and adventure sports.........ride fastest bikes and drive fastest possible cars
6.Show pa and ma how much I love them
7.Tell THE Girl about my feelings for her......
8.To all those mean classmates and friends.....tell them, they can fuck off peacefully cuz I am leaving forever.....
9.Apologize to those who faced misbehavior without reason.......
10.Have a lot of fun........

Rest peacefully and think how it has been.......and leave quietly......as if I was never there...........I don't want tears behind me........only smiles.......that's what I like.......everyone around should be happy............laughing merrily..........''

My Perfect Date

Today social Interview asked me to Describe My perfect Date........
This was a similar question asked by some counsellor in class 9th or something........

here it goes........

Honestly speaking.....I wish it could be perfect if it satisfies the following points:

1.It should be among clouds in sky...(a without convertible or an open roofless aircraft, a hot air balloon may be......)
2.The Dais should be made up of gold...and decorated with tulips and roses and flowers(varied kind)......
3.The Lighting should be absolutely candle lit.........(candle lamps, circular, cylindrical, spherical or any kind throughout the dais.....
4.The Italian Orchestra will play some kind of medley
5.Dais Of gold should feature traditional Indian design...peacocks, pigeons, leaves and flowers...
6.The whole surroundings should feel like a grand courtyard of a palace surrounded with clouds and moon...
7.The art on the dining table and walls etc. should be similar to that of designs featured in roman temples....
8."The Lady" should be greeted by staff dressed in Absolute Black and White....
9.The place shall feature 1000 mirrors arranged as a circle in which that would reflect surroundings on the outer circumference and obviously me and my lady at the center of all the mirrors......
10.It will be Grand as a sultan's palace on air.............


Imagine that......but....with a few changes.......only one table chair, more designs and artworks and add a no. of mirrors......this should be open air....in sky...........